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| Saturday, November 20th, 2004 | | 6:16 am |
EVERYBODY PLEASE READ!!!!!! VERY IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!
tonight my best friend nicci got a beer bottle smashed to her eye for no fucking reason. her eye is swollen shut, she has a mild concussion, and a big fucking slice under her eye. what i want from you guys is your help. the bitch who did this to her, ran from me, when i went over to her house to show her why people dont fuck around with me and nicci. and i will kick her ass very soon, i just want to give you all a personal opportunity to show that stupid fucker whats up. because the bitch deserves it. so heres her shit: brittney morgan 2413 geraldine drive pleasant hill, ca 94523 i know this all sounds like im a crazy bitch.... but really.... there is no fucking reason for that. and she needs to know. so im asking you all out there..... help me please. if you dont want to do anything, thats cool. i understand. just understand that i was brought up "eye for an eye".... but i taught myself that if its someone you love that gets hurt.... the one hurting them gets theirs 10 times worse. and if you have something in mind for her, but dont want to do it yourself.... tell me. i will not hesitate. and to all of you that dont know me, im such a fucking peaceful person. you can ask anyone thats close to me. but this shit.... was uncalled for. nicci didnt lay a fucking hand on her. they didnt even really get into a screaming match. just dumbass britney hit nicci across the face with a bottle. well i hope she knows who the fuck shes dealing with. because she will soon. peace folks. appreciate the love. Current Mood:  enraged | | Friday, November 5th, 2004 | | 3:19 pm |
wow. this is the first day i will be home, not just to sleep, in like four or five days. i dont like being here. it hurts too much. and my friends make it better too. so i think its just better all around for me to just be out of here. nicci and i hang out everyday. its great. i've been seeing more of sabrina too. all good things. finally talked to lynny. made me cry, and smile. pretty much what i expected though. i think josh and i are gonna go to napa today. that should be fun. maybe we'll get some weed. i need to smoke really bad. ooooo.... i have cigarettes. alright. i've been tempted. im gonna end this entry a little early. later kids Current Mood:  goodCurrent Music: vindicated - dashboard confessional | | Thursday, November 4th, 2004 | | 2:54 am |
thank you so much for ignoring me. i cant tell you how much it means to me. Current Mood:  depressed | | Tuesday, August 17th, 2004 | | 9:24 pm |
last one
why don't you let me see why don't you show me you let yourself be free and i promise to love her too so many months we've been together yet you still wear that mask i'll help you take it off you just have to ask what are you hiding from? just let it out i know you're afraid but i don't know what about you claim to love me but what for? this aggrivation is driving me out the door i don't know what to do im sick of trying to make you, you those arms that hold me at a distance are starting to push me away | | 9:19 pm |
painful
you hold me down you push me up you make it so i dont give a fuck you throw me around like i dont mean anything its like you stab my wounds with your venimous sting and you slit my throat with your angry word and my voice in the matter always goes unheard i dont know why i try but my efforts will never cease until you are gone ill never be at peace | | 9:15 pm |
more poetry
i just wanna see your face any time or any place i just cant stand to be without you it has torn me up inside and i am sick of trying to hide the way i really feel about you i've tryed so hard to push away but these feelings always stay its been so long since i've said i love you please don't try to forget me if you listen you will see i am worthless without you so please try to forgive me please try to understand i was an ass i was a jerk but understand i love you more than words | | 9:13 pm |
poetry
love clouds the mind and binds the heart it blinds the eyes and pulls you apart you can't escape it or make it untrue and i know this because i feel it for you you're the only one who makes me feel like this and i know when you're gone you'll be the one i miss my heart is full and on my face a smile for you i would walk the longest of mile in my step, a bounce and my head is light whenever im with you it always seems right you let people hurt you and i never know why but what hurts my the most is to watch you cry if only i could show you just how much i care the love that i would give you is more that i can bare im posting old poetry cus im a lame ass.... Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: blink 182 | | Sunday, August 15th, 2004 | | 1:50 am |
| | 1:33 am |
i have nothing else to do
The Ultimate Death Survey What do you think happens after you die? I HAVE NO IDEA Do you believe in heaven? YES Do you believe in hell? NO Do you think you will be judged after you die? NO How many people would attend your funeral? NOT THAT MANY Would you rather that people cry or laugh at your funeral? LAUGH What's better? A shot in the head or downing pills? SHOT IN THE HEAD What should be written on your tombstone? THAT HELEN KELLER QOUTE I HAVE IN HERE A COUPLE ENTRIES AGO Would you rather die childless or divorced? DIVORCED Do you want to die in the morning, afternoon, or night? NIGHT If you had a million dollars to leave, who would you leave it to? MY FAMILY What kind of flowers do you want at your funeral? ORCHIDS On your deathbed, which moment will you most remember? ALL THE GOOD TIMES I'VE HAD Have you ever watched someone die? NO What's the most gruesome death you can imagine? BEING TORTURED How often do you think about death? A LOT (MY MOM WORKS FOR A CEMETARY, SO I GUESS ITS IN THE BLOOD) Is fear of dying your number one fear? NO Do you believe in reincarnation? YES UNTIL YOU REACH YOUR HIGHEST LEVEL Have you ever wished someone you loved were dead? NEVER Do you consider life short or long? SHORT Do you think you have a soul? YES Assisting suicide for a terminally ill person is: OK, AS LONG AS YOU ARE SURE ITS FOR THE BEST If you were cremated, where would you like your ashes? SCATTERED IN IRELAND Would you choose to be immortal, if you could be? YES Current Mood:  pleasedCurrent Music: float on-modest mouse | | Saturday, August 14th, 2004 | | 3:03 am |
i have nothing better to do
since im bored as hell and dont want to think about how lonely i am, im going to re-do a survey i did awhile back. here goes nothing... last cigarette: on the way home from sam's club. i needed one after a day with my mom last kiss: few hours ago (not anything worth explaining) last good cry: cant even remember last movie seen: i watched "if these walls could talk 2" with the girls tonight last book read: first person plural by cameron west. my favorite book... last cuss word uttered: fuck last beverage drank: water, sarah scared me away from soda last food consumed: macaroni and cheese last crush: Terri last phone call: Erin last tv show watched: VH1, one hit wonders count down last time showered: this morning last shoes worn: black converse, low top last cd played: Deftones last item bought: Captain Morgan spiced rum, coke, and camel filters last downloaded: "mass destruction" faithless last annoyance: ashleigh last disappointment: NOT HAVING A GIRLFRIEND last soda drank: coca-cola last thing written: this entry last key used: y last words spoken: "FUCK YOU" to lily for being a shit head last sleep: my nap today last im: sarah last sexual fantasy: today last weird encounter: kicking nicci out of erins party last ice cream eaten: i have no idea....... i havent eaten ice cream in months last time amused: tonight, gotta love the mafia last time wanting to die: tonight last time in love: too long ago last time hugged: tonight, tori last time scolded: a couple days ago last time resentful: RIGHT NOW last chair sat in: the one im sitting in right now... duh last lipstick used: cant even tell you.... probably jr prom. hahahahaha last underwear worn: im wearing boxers right now. does that count? last bra worn: the one im wearing now last shirt worn: white thermal last time dancing: thursday @ the crib last show attended: aspect last webpage visited: livejournal! Current Mood:  cynicalCurrent Music: deftones still | | Friday, August 13th, 2004 | | 4:03 pm |
new job
i got that job at kaiser! hell yeah! im so fuckin excited. and guess how much my bitch ass will be making....... not $15.75....... $17.44! thats right! hahahahahahaha, im gonna be smoking so much pot it'll be ridiculous! GOOD LUCK ON YOUR TEST NICA! I KNOW YOU CAN PASS! Current Mood:  sillyCurrent Music: american idiot-green day | | Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 | | 11:54 pm |
eventful day
i had an alright day today. i sold my drumset (finally!) giving me $300. which is always nice considering i dont work at blockbuster anymore. ummm... kaiser called. they want to hire me. another awesome thing. i'll be getting like $15.75 an hour i think. but on the downside i have to take a drug test. which means no more pot, and i have to buy something to clean my system. =/ and finally, LILY IS NOT PREGNANT! YAY!!!! im so fucking glad. i totally dont want to take care of little doberman muts. *whew* hung out with terri tonight, after some delay. it was fun, shes trying to get me to watch big brother. i dont know how i feel about that. she has never watched the simpsons! well, until tonight..... ;) Current Mood: relievedCurrent Music: atomic-tiger army | | Thursday, July 24th, 2003 | | 7:13 pm |
friends only
my journal has been friends only for awhile. if you want me to add you, just ask. umm... yeah. thats it. | | Wednesday, July 16th, 2003 | | 1:41 pm |
cute pickup lines
i just though this was really cute... "It's not my fault I fell in love. You are the one that tripped me!" Current Mood:  dorkyCurrent Music: "intuition" jewel | | Tuesday, May 20th, 2003 | | 11:38 pm |
you're a god
I've got to be honest, I think you know, We're covered in lies and thats okay, But there's somewhere beyond this, I know, but I hope I can find the words to say, Never again, no, No never again. 'Cause you're a god, And I am not, And I just thought that you would know, You're a god, And I am not, And I just thought I'd let you go. Though I've been unable, To put you down, I'm still learnin' things I ought to know by now. It's under the table,so... I need somethin' more to show, somehow. Neveragain,nooo, No never agaaaaaain. 'Cause you're a god, And I am not, And I just thought that you would know, You're a god, And I am not, And I just thought I'd let you go. I've got to be honest, I think you know, We're covered in lies and thats okay, But there's somewhere beyond this, I know, but I hope I can find the words to say... Never again, no, No never agaaaaaain. 'Cause you're a god, And I am not, And I just thought that you would know, You're a god, And I am not, And I just thought I'd let you go. You're a god, Oh and I am not, I just thought that you would know, You're a god, Oh, and I am not, I just thought I'd let you go. Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: vertical horizon | | 11:11 pm |
thank god i found you
I would give up everything Before I'd separate Myself from you After so much suffering I finally found unvarnished truth I was all by myself For the longest time So cold inside And the hurt from the heartache Would not subside I felt like dying Until you saved my life Thank God I found you I was lost without you My every wish and every dream Somehow became reality When you brought the sunlight Completed my whole life I'm overwhelmed with gratitude Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you I would give you everything There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do To ensure your happiness I'll cherish every part of you Cause without you beside me I can't survive I don't want to try If you're keeping me warm Each and every night I'll be alright Because I need you in my life Thank God I found you I was lost without you My every wish and every dream Somehow became reality When you brought the sunlight Completed my whole life I'm overwhelmed with gratitude Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you See I was so desolate Before you came to me Looking back I guess It shows that we were Destined to shine After the rain To appreciate The gift of what we have And I'd go through it all over again To be able to feel this way Thank God I found you I was lost without you My every wish and every dream Somehow became reality When you brought the sunlight Completed my whole life I'm overwhelmed with gratitude Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you I'm overwhelmed with gratitude My baby I'm so thankful I found you Current Mood: dorkyCurrent Music: mariah carey (ick)(but i like this song) | | 3:34 pm |
Lacey
hey all. i have good news! i met a new girl! her name is Lacey, and i really like her. we talked all night last night, and i never once wanted to get off the phone or go to bed. (i did want her to get some sleep though. she had to work in the morning!). so today i slept in until 2, then i came on the computer to talk to her a little more! i cant get enough of this girl. shes amazing. *sigh* and yeah, im sprung. you dont have to tell me... Current Mood: giddyCurrent Music: "lets get physical" olivia newton john | | Wednesday, April 16th, 2003 | | 11:00 am |
the good and the bad
so i've been seeing this girl ashley for awhile now. and lately she hasnt been calling me back. so i figure, two things. either she has been really busy, or she is just avoiding me. now, i didnt think she'd be avoiding me b/c she kept telling me how much she liked me and yeah. just things she did, led me to believe she really did like me. but, i go read her diary and find out that she got together with her best friend and apparently they are together now. sadness. oh well. im going out with someone else on thursday. but im getting ahead of myself... so julie's 20th birthday party was on monday. thats where i met timarie. well, technically i've met her before. but i've never really sat down and had a conversation with her. she is really cool. and damn, she can dance. i love a girl that can dance. AND she's italian. there is nothing sexy than italian girls. whew, anyways. she's coming to the club with me and mikey and erin on thursday. that'll be fun. then next week, im going to LA. im so excited. i haven't seen my so cal friends since thanksgiving! YAY. and im going to disneyland. my favorite! ok, im tired of writing for now. bye! Current Mood:  energeticCurrent Music: "how many licks" lil kim | | Wednesday, April 9th, 2003 | | 7:56 pm |
more drama
so i thought the drama was over. apparently not. i have another diary and someone keeps leaving me notes about what a liar i am and shit like that. seriously, i have no reason to lie. i dont give a fuck about any of those people anymore. if i never saw them as long as i live, i really dont fucking care. but someone out there seems to think that i do. i really dont know anymore. but i feel really sick so i think im going to go throw up. Current Mood:  sickCurrent Music: "your signs" nonpoint | | 12:04 am |
standard break from life
I've got a regular problem So my standard break from life is in order I'm having trouble making sentences I'm older but I don't feel any smarter You see I don't know what I said to you And now you're pissed at you know who And I guess I deserve it I wish I could waste my time without wasting all your time I try to leave a good impression But it's hard when my obsession's in a wine glass And when you're only 23 It's not attractive to complain about your sore back Yes I can bitch until my eyes are blue And you're in bed with someone new And I guess you deserve her Wish I could waste my time without wasting all your time You say I'm fixable A classic case, lack of will I say I don't wanna try I'd rather stay here all night I've got a motivation problem So my standard break from life is getting longer Spent over 30 hours in this bed In two days, I guess I could've phoned her But now that I'm awake I'd rather take a drink And walk down to the lake And beg the sky for lightning bolts I can't waste my time without wasting all your time You say it's fixable A classic case, lack of will I say I don't wanna try I'd rather sit here all night Current Mood: sickCurrent Music: "cry" faith hill |
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